This & That

I'm looking for two photographs, but not of me, though they would represent me.  One photo of a woman with a horrid look on her face, pulling her hair out. The hair would be all over the place, you know, crazy and wild!  The other photo would be with a woman, looking quite mischievous, with the perfect shade of red lipstick on (these days those are hard to find!) and her lips making the perfect "O" as if she was trying to be coy, mischievous, expectant, and funny all at the same time!

I know, what the heck am I going on about?!  Let's take a step back shall we.  You read my blog so you have an idea of what is going on in my life....I just seem to enjoy putting it all out there, but no, rather, I like writing things down because it is my way of processing, it helps me to think, look at my life and to move forward with a plan.  One thing I do is I talk to myself, a lot!  It is another way that I process my thoughts too.  I say talking to yourself is OK as long as you don't respond, then you won't be deemed crazy!lol!

Keeping my blog helps me to reflect, and yes, YOU are the voyeurs in my life!  And no, I'm not a narcissist Think of it as REALITY without the TV! Anyway, before I lose you, and myself, I describe the images above because that is what I feel like at different times. The things I'm faced with from time to time, such as my son's illness (whatever it is), my daughter being sick too, but not as seriously; my inability to really get things moving along with my other goals because of the little things that distracts me and other stuff which I don't talk about, so no, I don't put everything on my blog; makes me wanna pull my hair out and scream with frustration, but I won't!  I will calmly exude the air of confidence that I usually do!

I will get my workout in this evening because that is the perfect way of getting the aggression out of my system, while keeping on point with make me healthier!  I will go home and have that last chocolate from my box of Mother's Day chocolate that I received from my beloved family.  And no, I won't feel guilty when I eat it!

Speaking of the perfect shade of red lipstick...I used to wear red lipstick when I was younger, I loved it, and didn't look so bad in it, I thought.  Over the years as I got older, I didn't wear red lipstick anymore.  (a friend of mine said she had the same problem) I couldn't seem to find the perfect red that would suit my complexion or my looks.   Recently I decided that I am tired of wearing clear, or no tone lipstick and glosses.  It seems the older I get, the more I feel as if I'm fading into the background.  I really can't blame women who do get themselves made over by a plastic surgeon in order to stay youthful!  But that my friend, is a conversation for another blog! 

I found the perfect shade of red, which I bought on a whim while picking up a few knick knacks for my daughter for Mother's day.  I hadn't tried it on, but it seemed to be the perfect shade of red, and I was right!  How's that for happy endings?!